Welcome Into The Darkness

trauma

I've discovered the reason why I'm so low profile nowadays. It's because I was traumatized by people who misunderstood me. I just realized it. I had always been badmouthed before due to my outspoken behavior and go-front act. Being older and I guess more matured, I hate this feeling and if before, I would rebel against it and get hated even more. Now, I just lay down and let everything be. I know such traits are not so encouraging as a lawyer... But, I honestly just want a simple happy life and as far as I hated changing myself for others' sake, I hated more being sad due to speculation of the 'wrong' me.

S*** !

at last, i broke down here in um n im so freaking piss with myself for some reasons... main issue is dat, gosh i hate how cold n incompetent lecturer's were allowed to even teach..! what, dey can ask so many from us but couldn't even show de courtesy to respect n answer our questions properly?! i say dats total bulls***! i guess they're hving some hormonic imbalance... crap! who agrees with me, brave urself n come up front!

bye long! ;(

wuu, as we walked towards the departure area, i already tried to exhale my breath deeply...avoiding de tears dat i kinda trust won't fall down.. it worked as i smiled pretentiously. then, it was time for us to give Along a final bye byes n i managed to control my tears until i saw a guy cried while hugging his momma gudbye.. it was automatic n de tears streamed my cheek.. it felt painful to say gudbye to someone u care... i hate to say dis, but it really makes me hate any meetings or r'ships bcuz i knw all of it will come to an end sooner or later n for me, de hardest part was letting go.......

why did it come to this???

i really dont understand... ive been eating my soul out to make them consider me as a part of their lives but yet, they just ignored me... im in pain n i really need a painkiller dat could help me cure this fucking need to hve a 'real friend'... i swear o god i would pay RM100 to anyone who can gve me d antidote...n mke sure it works.i guess i just friggin dont belong anywhere...

See, I told ya!

harhar, with regards to my previous blog post; 'riang-ria hari ainnan', saye nk mnunjukkan bukti kukuh bahawa saye mmg la seorg 'undecided crap' coz now ive kinda change my mind... i think i shall still put a career as a lawyer in my list. crap kan... nanye, mostly coz my mom agk tkjut dgr i nk jd lecturer je coz she dreamt of me bcoming a lawyer... die xhalang or kutuk or anything crappy like dat, bt when she heard about it d 1st time, her reaction was genuine n i hate to dissapoint her. bsides, im not hating d job of being a lawyer itself, juz d additional 'co-curricular' activities dat comes with it... btw, korg sure rse im poyo coz br 1st yr da ckp psl bcoming a lawyer @ lecturer, pas exam dlu sudeh rite...? yeah, i agree with dat but honestly, i need smthg happy 4 me to look 4ward to in dis life. so, phm2 jela eh, hehe...

Riang - Ria Hari Ainnan

skrunk ati tgh snang psl...eh, psl ape ek? tatau la, jnji snang ati sudeh! sat lg nk blk umah n ainnan da kinda decide on smthg quite important, my future.. ewah! nyway, ive dcided that im most probably not gonna pursue a career as a practicing lawyer. im gonna become a law lecturer, possibly on criminal law. best kan! b4 dis, bile pk if i wanna bcome a lawyer, i cant be myself.. kne brgaul dgn org, kne byk bace paper, kne idop hectic life n bla2 lg yg mmbosankan n perhaps a lil' hypocrite, ati mmg xsng... sedey. bt now, when ive considered becoming a law lecturer when i graduate (with flying colours hopefully, amin..) ati da xbeban sgt... yela, i jz need to knw how to teach in d most efficient n best way so dat my future-student, hehe can get what im teaching... mmgla kne byk mmbace n bla2 lg yg mmbosankan like social-networking, tp it's not d same feeling coz i can always be a discreet lecturer but loveable one, harhar.... idop pn xla susah sgt, bley pgi smbg blaja luar negara kalau pndai, bley melongo n tido kt umah weekends, tgk tennis, movies n other leisure things dat a lawyer probably can't do...huhu... tu jela nk bitau 2day. arap2 korg sume dpt doakan ainnan dpt happiness yeh! thank u!

waiting...

waiting for my tort class wic is at 11am.. i should sleep when i hv d oppurtunity but internet is kinda more tempting.. crap la... btw, i think im going to choose a fairytale life over this real life of mine. i shall live in the thought that i fucking don't need to 'really' live a real life, i'll just let that responsibility to my body to do so.. my heart shall be left in d fantasy zone.. dat cool or wut? wish me luck aye peeps..!

Help me, i'm begging someone...please..

Im so alone... I have no one to talk to, no one to settle my mind when Im confused... No one really wants to isten or let me listen... Im just leading a hollow life, I go for my classes, go back n perhaps eat n then straight to my room to study or bathe or just plainly sleep.. I don't believe in such a life... Ive prayed to God to banish all my stupid unnecessary feelings n let me focus on my studies but maybe I haven't pray enough because I still seem to be caught up with this shit feelings... I need help..............

Not Ainnan

There's  a race that never wants to listen and keeps on speaking their language without considering others.. I hate these kind of people because everytime I'm trying to be myself, they'll go berserk and condemn me like hell as if I'm a terrorist when I am not... They talk shit stuff and act as if they're not a part of the shit themselves... Hell with these people and really, burn them in hell for their unkind words...

I am but an innocent crap who just like to state out the facts and live peacefully....

Harharhar!

Hey ya all! Holly cow isn't it coz it's been a while since I last drop craps around here... Anyway, my life has changed quite a lot... Well, I can actually say that I'm not really leading Ainnan's life anymore... I dunno, some crap ghost just got into me n I'm someone else.... Harhar, crapping again.. Study kat UM ni pening gkla kpale psl dlu cm da lepak2 je dgn lecturer... Nw lecturers die susah sket nk satisfy... Dala byk giler nk kne bce kes yg ad smp 81 pages for 1 case, crap kn... Nk buat cmane, da suratan takdir (jiwanggis siott) kne amik law... Kt law fac UM xbyk hot @ good looking @ cute guys which makes life even harder (honestly, easier coz my eyes da xyah melilau, hehe..) sekse gkla nanyer... Xpe2, hopefully I'll meet him... Nyway, drop smthg if u want, I'll check soon hopefully... ;)

Here I am at last!

Hey all, Im another side of Ainnan.. My name, hmm... still Ainnan i guess? Just like to talk about a few things... I always wondered, what is the definition of friend? Seriously, when I parted my ways with my 5-year long friends, I felt like we were distaning, n that I sometimes don't feel like Im their friend anymore.. But, how could that be, where did all those 5 years went?? It went into trash or Im just de freaking trash?? However, me n my 3 verrrry good friends are still plus-minus the same.. but, in 10 years time? Where would we be..(I wish Im already in grave at that time...) I damn hate changes but that's what the world is forcing me to take.. Im changed? I dont think soo.. It's just that I never felt any right moment to show the people the real me... they would banished me I guess.. Hey, that's not all that bad right?? Shhh!! Stop talking to yourself! Okay, back to the story... Friend story..mm, I think it ends there coz it's just a wondering moment for me.. Hm, I had a lot to talk about but it ain't coming out right now, darn it!

Who Let the Dogs Out !!!?

Well, the title tells you the story already I guess.. It was 6th November dat day.(wow, its already 10th now..man, time does fly..) Me,Saiha n Fiz decided to wait for the bus.. it was quite long n everybody was talkin s*** bout mtc038 paper.. Da lame sgt tunggu, bus yg sgtla besar tuh xnmpkla jgk bygnye.. So,we changed plan n started to walk back.. Sai lead us to d shortcut path.. N dat's when I, the 1st one saw 2 police type of dogs.. They were handsome dogs though looked a bit scary.. So, I was like, oh my God! N we were all starting to blurb things like don't run, walk slowly back.. The dogs were staring at us and suddenly started running towards us, it was a slow pace run though, thank Goodness.. So, Fiz and Saiha ran like hell.. What was so damn funny is, Saiha, who was having a fever ran like a marathon runner leaving me n Fiz. Xbley blanhye, Fiz was wearing high heels n she looked funny running with it.. I was at d back of course, left way behind to have the 2 handsome dogs for myself...Hahaha! Sakit blakang maa... Nyways, I managed to runaway but the distance between me n the dogs was near.. Imagine this headings in the Star "3 UiTM Students Being Chased By Dogs, 1 - Now in the Hopsital"  That would be damn funny and embarassing of course, duhh...! It was a fun experience though... lest i was caught.. huhu!

separation of brains...

Yesterday was the day of total emotional unstability.. Thanks to learning of mtc016..or, malaysian politics and government. I outburtsted terribly...Mmule me n my roommates yumi n saiha study dlm kekurangbetulan kpale hotak...n den, I couldn't stand my feelings longer when my mom called.. She said the word "exam" that suddenly completely separates my brains..I remembered that Ive forgotten most of the things that Ive studied n read like almost 5 tmes n some topics,more..I cried like hell coz sedey sgt.. I pk, where have I done wrong..? Nk kate tgk pornographic xde, tgk guys byk sgt pon x(serious kay..), minum air gas, xde..mkn asam, lame da x sntuh asam..Felt so frustrated..don't know with who.. So, after hanging up the phone, I went to the toilet n cried.. yg xbley blahnye, I gi 'pandai' sgt bkak shower n 'mandi' dgn baju n sluar! "pandainyee!!" bengongla time tuh.. blk bilik mnggigil pastu trpaksela gi basuh n keringkan baju n sluar yg basah..kn da jd satu keje bod**... After saying sorry to all my roommates for my behaviour, I okla sket... Tried to study, xmau msk.. Tried to sleep xmau tido...ntahlah...What life am I leading???

hujan yg turun bagaikan air paip...

Here's a new post on my blog since quite a while.. Duhh, da kate final exam.. Nyways, got a new experience on Tuesday.. Guess what, on the day of my 1st exam, it was english paper.. it rained like crazy I tell u..seriously.. Man, people yg pakai payung pon lenjun imagine.. The rain came in every direction n the guys in my same course n batch were around n we were like trying to hide from the rain helplessly but failed, obviously.. Gile3x lebatla dat day, I dont know why.. Then de bus was soaking wet, our condition was like what this person dat I know said, "macam baru lps berenang".. Klaka lar after thinking about it now.. But at that time, I was freaking out though I dont know with who.. Ah, yes, my university for helding our darn exam outside the university, sounds illogical I know.. Da tuh, buat exam dlm dewan yg psg aircond cm dlm fridge kt bhg atas tuh, bhg sejuk beku.. Gilo ar!!! I honestly, had to take 10 minutes before I could move my fingers to write my answers.. Dala lenjun, duk dlm aircond sejuk beku.. Nasib soalan not so hard but I gile3x could've done better..especially de essay yg agk kacangla,yela tajuk die write an article on advantages of team-building camp..duhh? da bg points lak tuh.. I so am mad about it!

Towards the end...

Well, it is almost ending.. My first semester as a university student.. It has been a rough journey and I doubt if I enjoyed the whole journey.. Too much pain I guess.. But then, there were some gay (happy I mean, not that homosexual thingy kay!) moments.. I've done all my assignments except my mtc016.. A relief for me..big relief I tell you. However, the result of every assignment and test are not all that 'relieving' if you know what I mean.. My mtc038 test sucks, my drama was terrible, (but my lecturer was ok with it, so, who cares I guess..) my forum went fine but too long, my csc 134 overall marks are quite okay, at least for me.. Hey, i was not prepared at all.. my  MUET was horrible... I really hope some miracle will happen.. Nyways, I've babled too much about this whole thing.. Ciao first aite! Btw, wish me ALL THE LUCK in the world for my final exams kay!

im going nuts..!

hey korg.. lame xblogging eh.. mne xnyer, idop aku nowadays da di ambang ke arah tanjung rambutan.. gile ar pale otak aku ni dah dgn assignment last minute yg lecturers bg dgn amatla brtimbang rase.. the last i checked i had 13 assignments on my belt.. added with final yg gile dkat, cm tgh main "cak cak" je da... mnambahla lg risiko utk aku hilang kebolehan mngawal diri aku nih.. pastuh, aku plg xbley blah bile kne blaja bnde yg xde kne ngene dgn idop aku  yg aku sndri  xminat nk truskn.. korg imagine ar, kitorg kne blaja drama? mybela konon2 tujuannye tuk aja kitorg blakon.. cme aku ni trpakse pgang wtk a guy.. ai, nk suro aku blaja jd laki watper?? besides, iv been acting my whole life maa.. lg satu, csc.. computer.. blaja basic n necessary things xpela.. ni x, blaja psl bus line ar, RAM ar.. n tah hape2 lgla.. duli hape aku mnde2 tuh? janji pc n internet ley brfungsi dala... buku dala berat.. tmbh lak dgn kwn2 yg xmmberangsangkn..ishh! pecah pale aku ni kalo theory fiziknye ble pcah ikut kebengangan org... so, in a nutshell, I DAMN HATE MY FREAKING LIFE!!!!!!

weird day..

Hmm.. 1stly, assignment da byk gile.. Lecturer pulun skali gus.. Patut bgla earlier so that we can concentrate on studying time2 nk dkat final nih.. Gram jgkla, but i see it coming.. mane xnye, klas lain sebok dgn mcm2 assignment, klas kitorg lenggang sawi jek.. Nyways, td I went nuts.. Ttibe trase nk jd gedik.. So, I pn jdla.. Guys in my class sume xthn.. Xtaula takut iman jatuh or coz mmg nyampah.. Oh well, that's the point of being a gedikses.. Bengkekla, nk final exam nila nk buat bnde2 bodoh, buang mase etc.. Rase nk lmpang diri sndiri jer(lame xbuat cmtuh..rindula plk..).. Dala, xmo lame2 kt cc nih.. Nk naik room n study...! Jaane peeps!   

To my classmates

To my classmates yg bace blog I n rase cm I nih nyampah seklas dgn korg.. I have no feelings like that towards korg.. Honestly, I'm kinda greatful dpt classmates cm korg.. Adela reason2.. Maybe the most obvious is that korg xbyk prob dgn I n xby songeh n xngade trlebey..n some other reasons. Nyways, the thing is, I hope korg ley except me just like I except korg okay :) N to my future classmates, if I was among the ones yg kne kua(hopefully xjd what Pn Hamsiah ckp tuh.. manela tau kn..), I hope korg could take some time to get to know the good side  of me.. Or, if xbrminat  nk bknalan pn, just keep the professional relationship between colleagues  around so that we can suceed this course..Amin..

Damnation!!!

Darn! 1st n foremost.. Smlm tido lame giler, cm kne druged.. Gile sedey coz wasted my time on sleep.. I should have studied ;(  Then, td  got  2 know some bad news from my student coordinator(which means the info should proof real..), that next semester kne rombak klas.. From 7 to 8 klas coz kononnye class right now is too crowded.. Konon kt lab comp xmuat.. Huh.. Maybe just kuakan 4/5 student from each present class n msukkn dlm the new, eighth class.. Lame or what..?! Dala my name ni ske trmsk dlm pmilihan bnde2 yg nyusahkn.. Dlu kne plkn, padehal diri ni sakit.. Abis tuh, I had to go through hell lot of messy things which was the annoying stare from the nurses n MRI.. MRI was the worst, I had to lay down pakai baju hosp yg nipis tuh dlm aircond for almost 2 hours n I can't n must not move or have to go through again.. Imagine the pain.. Org dala sakit tulang, sejuk lg, kne stay still lg.. Crazy maa.. N all that was bcoz the PLKN xmo trime doc  pkr kt putrajaya pnye simple memo stating that i can't do activity physical...? Dorg nk memo yg complicated jgk.. Anyways, now, I think next sem, if they randomly select the student, my name, hig possibilitynye akn naik.. It's not that I love my classmates like hell.. It's just the fact that I have to go through the whole gruelling moments of knowing other people tuh yg I hate to bare.. I dala mls giler thp dewa nk buat kwn.. Dgn prangai cmnih..lgla sekse... BENGONG!!!

loneliness

It's tiring.. I feel lonely even though my friends and family are around me.. Wait? Should they be called 'friends'? Just because we're studying the same thing, does it mean we're friends??? Anyways, u guys outside there xde prob cm aku ker? U know, this lonely feeling yg mkn de inside of u? Aku nyampah tgk human beings n that includes myself? Am I sick? Maybe.. Funny, slumber rock je aku merepek cmni. Ai, kalo da keje nnti merepek cmni lg sure problem rite.. Oh well, I judt hope that when I finaly have a job, my boss won't see me.. Just see my work.

Syndrom ESS(Emotion Seasaw)

Ni lah syndrom br yg me n my roommate Saiha br ketemu dis week.. Sume thanx 2 Fizah who was the 1st person showing the symptoms.. Come 2 think about it, aku dr dlu da mmg ade syndrom ESS nih.. cume dis week after buat research with Saiha br dpt bg name kt syndrom nih.. Seasaw dlm syndrom ni means that it's naik turun.. Nyways, smlm, sbb tido lame sgt, mlm tuh nk tido tp xley.. Nk blaja, otak trlalu mixed up.. Tension2, dala food poisoning.. Msuk tandas, after kua ape yg patut basuh ar rambut.. boring sgt kot.. Tgk cermin cm smcm cz muke da pucat giler lps kuakn sume isi perut..rambut ak da bsh.. towel xbwk.. Abis lenjun baju.. Blk room buat sudoku jp n den try tido. I guess dpt gkla tido 2wars de end.. Tp, prasan x, kite xpnah prasan exactly when we start our sleep? Bgun2, da kul 7.. Roommate ckp da kjut tp I slept like Im in a comma dgn tgn cm tgh smaygnye gaye.. Man, how I wish I was really in a comma or better, dead...

Im sooo freakin pissed!!!

Dgrla nih, aku tgh geram n tension thp max a.. Mane xnyer, w gotta go 2 replacement class this saturday n the next saturday too.. The reason? Coz lecturer xmsuk klas the first 2 weeks kitorg stat blaja.. lame or what? It's not our freakin fault coz we all came for classes only to do nothing since lecturer xde. menongok cm bodoh.. Dala i hate new environment time tuh.. Abis, waste of our time jela yg  b4 tuh dtg klas.. Tah pape, baik blk uma or tido dlm room or whatever yg kitorg nk buat.. Now, amik time cuti kitorg utk buat klas.. Then, sape nk replace time kitorg yg da diwaste b4? Td da xble thn kemarahan, aku pn buat ar hal dgn gelak sorg2.. I don't know why, but if Im tension thp max I akan gelak.. It's weird.. Nyways, sbg pnambah pnyedap rase kt ketensionan pale otak aku, td dptla paper mtc 038 blk.. Truk. That's all i can say. The thing is, my lecturer gunekn alasan yg die pnah bg cth kt klas psl kes yg msuk dlm exam tuh but she cant continue explaining or defending that soalan die xlgkp which means, the case yg die pnah mention b4 this does not count ar actually..! ARGhhhhh!!! But, she's the lecturer kn.. Besides, die baik.. Nk bengang thp dewa pn xsmp ati.. Will i survive in this area I wonder.. Gile pnat a nk idop... Next, this mamat yg i used 2 kinda like prassan giler a.. Aku time cuti br nih da nekad nk study.. Lgpn, when die xbg reaction, kite phm2 sndrila kn.. So, aku pn xskela die da.. People may find it hard to believe..hey, commonla, that's what we call "just a brief crush".. Ape yg susah sgt nk accept that fact? Abis tuh, die pon tgh prasanla kt mane die brade yg aku ni ske kt die.. Trase nk gi kt die n explain one by one..pastuh bg pnumbuk kt muke die.(snanyer citer nih pjg lg but mls nk tulis.yg pastinye that guy sucks ar..) But then, why should I waste my time on stupid matters like that.. Damn...

darn!

argh!! my arms are hurting like hell... yesterday bwk brg byk sgt.. slalu my sis ade nk tlg.. man, my life's going down! dala tuh, 2morrow kne plak pgi parliament! naik bosan aku tgk dat place.. da pgi byk kali maa.. y doi have to go again?! lame........ today mmg bosan.. klas lgs xde psl lecturer xmsuk cz xdpt parking their cars.. konvokesyen kt uitm tlh memenuhkn parking2 yg ade.. it's actually a good thing ;) for my luxury not my study.. dala, buhsan.. ciao dlu.

F***

attributing this lyric to myself:

fuck you, you know

it don't mean shit now

fuck what ive said

ure hurting me now

fuck you, you now

i don't want you back

ainnan: have i lost my mind?hm.. mybe? but then, it was already lost long time

           ago i think? what do u think?

ainnan: dude, are u okay? better move on to next blog before u go crazy here..

new start.. hopefully...

alrite peeps2 out there.. im going to give an announcement jp. from dis day 4ward, i m going to try concentrating my lifeon my studies n nothing else, including guys or trying to find a bf.. i think im going to give up on guys(not that im becoming lesbo ok..simpang malaikat 44 maa..) because i believe most of them sucks n dat ive done all dat i think i can but never had i been appreciated by them. so, be it.. i hope i can carry out this motto > "no man no cry"

friends?

I have this 3 very good friends that i cherished most among others..exception my family. We used to go to school together, have same opinions n thoughts, meet up everyday.. N then, spending a lot of times during the last-long-loved-holiday.. They were, honestly, a part of me.. But now, we're all leading a different lives which somehow drawing us apart.. Or maybe Im the only one with that thoughts..? But then, how can 4 people meet up n be the same when they lead a very different lives? We may no longer talk the same language..n surely have a very different view.. We no longer have that same thoughts I believe..

This makes me think.. What are friends or best friends for??? The moment we went to seperate paths, we're drawn apart..mentally.. N that is why I hate making friends that are close to heart.. It sucks when we part ways.. But, people kept telling me, "let's be friends"... Is that particular 'friends' term apply when u will only be in that 'friends' 4 certain time?

sedeynyer!!!

Well peeps, my sis has gone back to Ireland.. N she'll only be eback after 9 months..(hmm, sounds like pregnancy ak ;>) Time kt airport anta die tuh ter-emo lak.. Nangis woo... Xtau pesalnye I was so damn sad.. Maybe she was nice through out her holiday..(dulu kureng sket,hehe..series..) Nyways, honestly rite now Im still sad.. Thinking that I can't go back to college at 10 somethin nymore coz my mom nnti trpakse drive dgn my smaller bro je..(eh, kolej tutup kul 11 ke 10 eh? luper a, da lame cuti..) n then, biler nk blk ari jumaat,(hope i still can go back home on friday.. please dear God..) im going to pick my things alone n xde da org yg slalu nk tumpang tandas kolej ;'0 Waaa, sedenyer!!!

yeay!

dis morning my heart felt sick.. literally, i think coz i xtido dgn btul ar during this few days.. now da okay sketla.. this morning class went fine.. i takut gkla class mtc 016 i coz it's tutorial class n i xbace pape pon sbb sebok bace csc last minute ;) but then, puan ima was in her good mood td, thank god! then, test csc.. sir ckp xde essay just fill in the blanks.. skali pas2 question paper ade ak esssay! giler ah.. tp2, lum abis agi.. since sir kitorg giler baik+sporting, kitorg negotiate bout the test.. lawak kn? so, in de end, kitorgnyer test just jwp true/false for 15 questions n 6 soalan essay jd assignment.. coool n best giler!!thanx sir!! sat lg im going to bel 250 class n den balik!!!!! cuti!

warghh... truknyer!!

yesterday i got a test kan.. it went bad.. i blacked out time bace the 1st question.. biler tgk xde answer 4 numbr 1 pnye question, mood nk buat numbr 2 n 3 n so on pon da giler lari.. at dat moment my desk kinda bersepah.. i felt like throwing all the stuff on my desk n scream.. lps tuh, sabar gkla smp glak sorg2 coz nk try thn sedeyh..abis tuh, try jgakla buat numbr 5 n 6.. tgh buat tuh kuar a sket2 idea for the 1st 4 questions.. but i left a few important points.. n i believe im going to suck in that test.. i'll just have to accept it.. however, im confused, why? what did i do to get into such a situation padehal i hve read all the stuffn da igt gkla like more than 5 times... maybe im just having a badluck, normal..4 me..

help me..

i wonder, why i never had any bf? i mean, usually girls my age has had one at least once.. am i that ugly? huhh, i guess im just not lucky with this lurv thing, sad.. but then, people sure xpcaye when i told them.. dude, why would i lie.. im seriously a virgin to the core ;) it seems like im desperate to have a bf.. i don't know..but, no matter how desperate i would be, im so not going to just pick a bf out of nowhere.. u get what im saying? i seriously don't understand those yg buat contract coupling.. funny pon ade, dumb pon ade.. oh ya, heartless pon ade.. tah pape.. another one, yg bf or gf keliling pinggang.. is it cool to do so? i wonder..

adventure in everyday's life

ni nk citer bout naik bus kt uitm... giler adventure!!!

kalo tme nk naik, u can just stay stagnant, people around will push u, hopefully towards the bus' door ar... carefull not to be pushed into the longkang or tepi jln eh!

okay, pas da naik bus tuh, dlm 2 brpusu-pusu cm nk buat umrah/haji... biler bus start jln, inersia will try its best to make u fall... ;O mlg giler coz xde org muke cm brad pitt utk buat2 jatuh, hehe ;P xdla, kidding, haram woo...

tgh dlm prjlanan tu plak, kalo driver cm ngantuk or anything yg ble nyebabkn bwk bus cm tutup mate, ttibe akn teringatla lagu "knockin' on heaven's door" by gun's n roses... i xtau org lain, but i cm harap gkla, pintu heaven tu trbukak dgn snang atinyer 4 me =)

on d way nk turun tuh, make sure your body tu dikempiskn sekempis-kempisnyer... if not, possibility utk tersekat sane sini tuh amatla high.. it's fine with me though if u ske main skat2 nih ;)

yg xbley blah tu, uncle driver bus skolah yg indian nih lg polite dr majority of uncle driver bus uitm yg malay nih.. org ckp time kasih kt dorg, muke selenge jek.. ai, nasibla aku naik bus.. kalo jln kaki je pon ble, da lame aku kritik dorg.. malu la sket, indians pon tau ckp "ye" or "okay" or "same2".. aiyo, yennade!!!

take a moment to think

People outside who's reading this.. Let us take a moment to think about problems arising in this world. What happened to the civilized world that some of us think we used to have one n some who think that we never had one? I fall in the 2nd category though.. Why this problems are arising nowadays? I'm referring to the lebanon n israel case now.. Basically, all blames are on us human beings..  I went for 'solat hajat' that was arranged by my univesity to wish that peace will come soon for palaestin, lebanon n other islamic country that's facing the war right now. I was praying for the sake of the children there though since they are new to this world.. But, honestly, for the sake of the adults, I was a bit uninterested to do.. You might wonder, why? It's just that this singer, remember, the one who sang "nour el shams".. ? She came up in my mind.. She's lebanese right? Can you understand what I'm trying to tell you? It's like, I don't feel that they deserve our prayers... Maybe peeps out there don't feel the same thing.. But, I do hope strongly that peace will come soon for them n peace will be here in our country for at least as long as I'm still alive..

lalala...

hehe, im at my mom's office now.. tu yg kinda happy smacam ;)

but then, ader tension sket bout my university pnyer schedule.. beng-ong giler, main tukar2, postponed2, batal2 last minute ak.. gram tul..

whatever happen, im so going to skip a day at least 2 send my sis kt airport nnti..

gomendasai

im here to apologize about yesterday's post which i kinda go over the board.. had u read my blog, i've said some a** words n guess what? it turned out that the meeting was not really a meeting.. it was a urine test! of all the things! btw, we did it using our eyes. yup, it was a urine test with eyes.. i guess technology does make life easier..sometimes..

nyways, 2day i carried 1142 photostat papers n now my back is aching.. i vow not to do it again though.. shit, nasib xde test sok. oh ya, my test td went fine i guess if my judgement of my answers are rite.. dis computer is bengong, lembap giler.. i guess, i'll ciao now dlu. nex time post lagi.

boring giler kolej aku!!

buenas guys.. guess what, tonite i got this meeting coz i didn't attend the ramah mesra pelajar thingy.. lame kn... even worse, i got test 2morrow... shit tul ar ass those yg cibai sgt nk poyo2 nih.. i mean, duhh... this is university man, not some primary or secondary schools.. kalo da miss sgt life skola kecik2 dlu, gi ar blk mninjau skola lamer.. ngader tul a... btw, dis sunday at 7am those freak adekn gotong-royong?? aiya, boring giler babeng ah.. tension pale gue..

oh well..

2day, i woke up like always but im not like always.. my head was spinning so badlyi felt like i just went 4 a 720 degree rollercoaster ride.. i felt nausea(not that im pregnant okay!) but i still went 2 the bathroom 2 bathe.. just 2 avoid lining up later if u know what i mean.. i came back 2my room n decided i couldn't bare myselfgoing 2 class like that.. so i slept.. i woke up at around 9.30 n felt a bit better so i prepared myself 2 go 2 class even though it's late.. well, i guess the thought that matters rite? but guess what, i arrived at my class' building around 10am n i saw my classmates already walking 2wards the bus stop.. hm?? one of my classmates told me the class was over n that there will be no class after this..! oh well... thought that matters aite... 

shit!!!

wah!!! tension giler babi ar paler otak aku nih dis week.. mane xnyer, i thought ive graduate my high school, rupenye still stuck in de same damn shit formula of primary/high school's formula which is force n coercion!!! in a simple word, kne pakse!!!! bangang tul r, aku nk blk gk dis week! knapela jpk2 nih tergedik-gedik nk beramah mesra ak? n for 3 days my goodness gracious! tah hape yg nk mesre tah.. nk mesre2 blah ar dgn blk masing2..! u know what i think? i think they're juz jealous 2 see de newbies (cz newbies je yg kne..) blk home every weekend..! f*** ar this peeps if that's their motif...

Hellop all.. Ari ni snanyer nk gi cc coz nk download smting but my sis ttibe ngantuk cz she slept at 2am..(die xde lg bakat 'tido lmbt-bgun awl-no hal' cm aku ;>) So, die pon xjadikla ngekor mak kitorg..sounds weird, mk kitorg... :?  Anyway, me pon dgn sng ati bt still mamai2 gi ar mandi.. Ari nih pakai baju Chanel with kain jeans.. Mom kater bergaye, bt i know die just nk cover keglameran die pakai jubah n tudung style arab.. So die ckpla me bergaye ari nih.. Huh, slame ni mmg bergaye pon..baru sedar upenye ;) Nyways, im changing to another post jap kay.

Urghh!!

Damn it! I heard a few samples of my fav band's songs but the computer is jamned.. Lembap tul ar pc nih ;( btw, my goodness gracious! the songs are wonderful..i really2 got to get my hands on the album... when/if  i could find it in record stores that is.. whyla susah sgt nk nyenangkan idopku..?!

Wonderwoman...No,it's Wondering r..

Hehe, in one day da post byk blog.. Yelar, amik ksmpatan smpene smpat jap..

Nyway, nk talk about Paris Hilton... I really don't understand why peeps watch her tv show Simple Life.. 1stly, they're sexy but they're EXTRA GEDIK.. 2nd, they're EXTREMELY annoying.. 3rd, that show is a freaking stupid show.. I don't mind if they're like really naiive or mmg bodoh2 bndul.. Yg xble bla nyer, dorg made it up only..

Like, ive seen the show once (it should be my last too...) n they was assigned to make sum cup cakes i think.. They did well in the beginning but then, they GEDIKly (my new dictionary's word) messed everything up n said that it was other's fault.. Like, duhh...? So fake maa... They really should change the show's name to Faking @ F**king Life show u know.. ;D

Seriously?

Seriously, Hamidians da ade basketball team? No puerdo ser...( impossible in english..) Well, it's no puerdo ser coz 1st, Hamidians are not that cool if u know what i mean ;) 2nd, ive never really seen much of tall guys kt Maahad r.. Cmne nk mng if main? Btw, i don't agree if people keep saying that winning's not important,it's the way u play the game.. Yes, the way u play the game pnting but duhh... winning is almost evrything okay! If xstuju with me, feel free 2 comment.. (hehe,nk pakse org komen lgla tuh..xble blah tul dier nih..)

Muahaha!

Orait! Manusie2 out there yg rase dirinyer manusie.. Sorryla coz aku nih ader sket tyrant n cm pakse suro leave comment after reading my blog.. aku xpakse nanyer ( branila korg xtinggalkn komen ;E nnti aku anta virus2 bnci kt korang,wahaha ;D)

Adoi, honestly, aku cm ade sket feel yg im somewhat like Gollum dlm Lord of the Rings tuh cme aku xsehodoh tula.. Saper yg da picture in mind td muke aku cm Gollum, siap r die.. I can read people's mind u know..tp, lps die btau diam2 ape die pk lar..(amende aku mrepek nih??)

Anyway, back 2 de point. I feel like dat coz im like 'this' n im like 'that'.. But, it's kinda mixed up.. Mm.. bg name r eh.. Name prangai aku nih 'gooee' smpne kacukan spesis GOOd n EEvil, huhhu ;)

Aiya..! Serie r, aku sgt good mood skang.. Smp rase cm sewel sket aa..

Good Mood

Hmm.. it's quite a weird day 2day... I mean, im in a pretty good mood.. I hate it...! Seriously, I hate it when Im in a good mood.. Cm rase nk bg pnumbuk kt muke sendiri.. (...lame gk xbuat cmtuh kn...?)

Btw, i think kn, i can create my own dictionary.. mybe akn mintk a few words from my 3 best friends.. the name of the dictionary i think is ' New-Weird-But Cool Dictions ' =) This is a sneak preview at a few words in my dictionary tuh>> ~menyetrike= strike boling  ~busuk= di/mem bncikan main2  ~heLLo therre=cute guys << So, peeps2 out there yg nk order 'New-Weird-But Cool Dictions' dictionary by me nih, silela tmpah kt Jln Kegelapan Lorong Merapu Negeri Tahpape kay! Thanx!

Thanx!

Huhu, bg mrk2 yg tlh mnengok blog aku, thanx r coz tgk.. Korg mmg wongi!

Ari ni nk gi hospital wat X-ray.. Ikut kiraan manualnye aku da wat X-ray ni 10 kali.. hehe, cukup2 jari jemariku nk ngirenyer.. Bykkn? Tula aku ni cm ade X-factor! Heehee ;) Xdela, aku main jek.. Honestly, aku kurang reti mmprasankan diri..

Anyway, my sis blk from Ireland friday nih, insyaallah.. Hmm, kalo my sis ade msti my Mom cm xbg nk hang out with my friends.. xpe2 I'll try 2 persuade her bg me lepak uma Nad dgn Tqa n Tati b4 my sis blk.. Gambate!

er

so sad.. nobody's reading my blog.. what's de point.. but, i just like to write in blog.. kind of like a diary.. my friends pon tau i write diaries... da lame gkla...since form one.. i'll keep doing it for sure cme less frequent coz kne study.. dlu, dr form one smp form three, i write in it everyday.. now xlar.. weh, i gotta go now, ciao!

Hullo! Aiya, 2day Ancic will go against Federer in the French Open quarterfinal.. Well, even though they've had 3 matches before, Federer won twice.. But the one time Ancic defeated Federer caused Federer his only Grand Slam title that he never had. So, im so afraid Federer will fight Ancic to his last energy to go through to the semifinal this time. I just hope Ancic will sail through to the final and win the Roland Garros..

hye korang!so, erm, sedey coz atp master series kat german da abis but Mario Ancic xmng.. si Tommy Robredo tuh yg mng... mnci!! tp, seriously, he's cute... nk mara xsmp ati.. but, dgn azam yg kuat aku jerit gkla last2 "Tommy Robredo bodoh!!!"not nice i know... but im so sad coz after dis Ancic n d others susah ar nk dpt chance msuk semifinal pon since i believe Federer n Nadal will compete in de atp master series kt mane tah lps nih..

I just realized yg blog2 td tuh xder title kn... Hm, xpe, spe'sial' sket my blog nih, hahaha!

Ala, kan best if I have Internet kt umah.. Mmg post blog everyday la.. Well, that's what blog's functions are, isn't it? Everyday's post.. Masalahnye, dlu ader Internet but atas sbb2 yg budak2 kecik xle tau, make, Internet di rumahku tlh dicancelkan.. Sedey!!! ;'(

Kat blog friendster nih xley letak emoticons eh? Hm, friendster should improve nih.. ( ke im the one yg kne improve bab2 blogging ni? anyone, answerla kalo rase diri 2 baik sket, heehee..)

Hehe, post tadi tuh snanye testing2 jer.. Sbbnye, b4 dis susah gile nk submit.. ;) 2 yg aku ade blog kosong jek, huhu..

Hm...AF4 da nk start, lucky im maybe going to university, xyala some what being forced to see that damn show.. Sorryla yer fanatic2 AF out there, I have my own opinion on everything and for me AF is stupid n sickening..

Hm, tadi bace blog Dmitri Tursunov, best ar.. Die naik kete 160mph, driver bawakla tpnyer.. Tp, sure syok gile coz 160mph tuh..!

Jap yeh, tukar new post jap... Bosanla ;P

hey guys! ermm, ive been quite busy lately with my schedule.. well, i have tennis games to watch, soccer match to see n now that the FIFA 2006's aound the corner, man...!